October 3, 2015

With God She Changed.

Sometimes you just have to come out and say it. 

Some days are more challenging than others and somehow we still make it. 

This new chapter in my life, no longer includes the person I thought it forever would. 

I can't quite explain how I feel.

But I stand humbled, covered in God's abundant Grace & Mercy, knowing that this storm is not in vain. 

That the best... is yet to come. 

Romans 8:18



August 17, 2015

the situation.

I did a lot this weekend. It was probably one of the best weekends I've had in a really - and I mean that.. long time.

We'll keep it short & simple because Travelocity awaits me.. ( the holidays God willing,  will be spent gawking at beautiful things somewhere between Park Ave, Broadway.. Saks & the windows at Barneys )

- Friday Evening - Hot air balloon 'Festival' ... the word festival is quite questionable... BUT ... for the sake of this post & that small town.. we'll let it be.

- Saturday Afternoon - Myself & a friend of mine rode the TRE downtown and went to the circus.. because my life isn't a circus enough.. I needed to see a little more crazy.. I mean... at least they get to wear glitter / sequins all over their crazy.. if only..

- Saturday Evening - We met up with two of our favorite brother's from different mothers.. and cracked up about life and a load of other things.. pretty much late into the night.. and we ended up at the bowling alley.
SIDE NOTE : this is how I discovered at 22 .. that the little 5 year old in the bowling lane next to us with her parent's.. will ... always be better than me at bowling. Sometimes you gotta loose. I'd be okay with loosing to that cute little girl any day.

- Sunday - Church, Food, Nap, Jersey Shore.... OH MY GAWSH. 

I'm pretty much embarrassed at the fact that I almost did not wake up on time for work because of the freaking Jersey Shore. Let's just say I got 3 hours of sleep.. came home during my lunch break and took an hour long nap. I really need a hobby.

& with that, we close.. we hope.. and we look forward to whatever Lord willing this week has in store for me.

Diligently working on #WGodSC

- Jx

August 4, 2015



New week.

New day (s) to come.. God willing of course.

New experiences.

New challenges.

New memories.

New expectations.

New laughter.

New take-on things.

New boundaries.

New forgiveness.

New happiness.

New You.

New Us.

New Me.

I'm excited for what's to come.

" If anyone is in Christ, he is a NEW creation.. The old has passed away and the new things have come."

2 Corinthians 5:17

God is ALWAYS good.

- Jx.

July 29, 2015

The things that..

keep us alive.

One day I will write a really good book. Of course I say really good.. because it'll be my book.

-- Its Wednesday & I've survived the last three days.

Praise God.

It's like: We we're in the middle of filming a Taylor Swift video.. the happy kind.. like... the one's where she would prance around... during her high school heart loves that then turn into bitter breaks / aches.. and then....we ran out of film.

I know. Complete Catastrophe.

So far I've learned.

I'm stronger than I think I am. I mean.. for all I know.. I could quite possibly turn out to be THE strong black woman.. everyone raves about.

My God. My faith & His love... are EVERYTHING. When you cry for hours and days.. you eventually stop crying.. and even when you TRY to cry... Honestly.. it sorta becomes impossible to cry without you yourself thinking of just how much you might be faking those tears. 

You no longer sigh just because.. every sigh you let out can only mean one of two things.. (1) This sucks.. (2) I'm going to be ok.. and lastly... 

let's quote Sex & The City... at this point (it's a must) ..

Carrie: Will I ever laugh again?
Miranda: Yes.
Carrie: When?
Miranda: When something is really, really funny.

Let me tell ya'll.. Yup. It's true.. you do laugh & smile again.. and then you ask God to bless those who provide you with that gift in the midst of your pain.. with many abundant and infinite happy moments they too may one day need in order to laugh off their storm. 

In this life, unfortunately... storms are unavoidable.. but once things settle down.. it will all be clear.

As I sit here outside Starbucks.. typing away on a laptop that's not even mine.. drinking passion tea with strawberry instead of my usual lemonade.. I am reminded that it's ok to try new things. 

It's ok to be different. It's ok to not always be in control.. however next time.. I will not get passion tea if there's no lemonade.. the strawberry mix gave it a nasty Robitussin taste.. I still said ok.. because the guy was nice and friendly and offered to mix me a different flavor if I didn't like it.. but I think I have enough issues at the moment.. and the least of my worries is how much I need to enjoy my passion tea. ( Yup.. you become a teeny weeny less bitchy about things that don't matter.. when you are facing things that may have just turned the world you've always known completely and utterly upside down..).. Back to where I was going with this.. There's so many trees. I haven't noticed in weeks just how green they are.. and how nice it feels to sit outside without being buried in stress of how motherf-ing hot it is. It's partly cloudy.. and there's plenty of little kids running around being loud as can be.. and it's nice. Life goes on. The world must keep spinning even if its not spinning the way we think it should be..

I AM blessed.. I AM happy. I AM confident that God has a plan. There would be no content for the upcoming ( insert project name ) .. if this was not happening.. I am sure of it.

How great it is to live confidently in Christ.. and.. sure people stare and think you're crazy, brain washed and stupid. But I know WHO I serve. I know WHO loves me. I know WHO goes before me. 


- Jx.