March 20, 2015

last hoo-rah!

Today was my last day at the non-profit.

It was a bittersweet day by far. However I can truly say that God has blessed me with many friends I hope to cherish and keep in touch with for the rest of our lives. I love them dearly and I will miss them all.

We played hide and go seek .. - per my request. We had (almost) the entire building available to us.. and we enjoyed every bit of it. The first part, was for me to count and them to hide.. and they each had a sticky note they we're instructed to write something nice about me or a memory they had with me, and once I found them they would give them to me. Then after everyone had been found, It was my turn to hide. We played for almost 35 minutes maybe even more.. we talked and laughed and reminisced. I felt incredibly special to know that my colleagues appreciated me as much as I appreciated them. I left there knowing that, God gives favor to those who ask for it.. that in doing so they would be able to bless others.

I received some gifts from them and my lead was so incredibly sweet that she went out of her way to put together a box of things that reminded her of me.. She gave me a mug that reads.. "Classy YET Sassy.." Haha.. Probably the best mug I'll ever own. (Well aside from the Eiffel Tower one).. but pretty really close. 

The nice little gestures from everyone have gone a long way and I hope they know that. 

My heart is so full of love and joy right now I can't contain myself. I'm excited for this new chapter God has opened for me and I feel very grateful that I got to live this one at the non-profit. I truly truly truly can't stress out enough...

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."

Psalms 37:4

March 19, 2015

I would like to..

Give all my praise to the King of Kings.. The Lord of Lords...

My God is my peace. My comfort. My healer. My reemder. My defender.

I'm not sure if there's even enough words to describe the grattitude I have towards God, he has blessed me and continues to bless me beyond belief. His word and his promises are true, and he proves them daily... with every moment and every breath that I take.. I see that HE IS a living God, he hears me.. my worries, my cries, my pain, my needs.. He loves me so much that it gives me chills and brings tears to my eyes... just thinking that the Same God who made the heavens, the sky, the moon and the stars, the ocean, and every grain in the sand.. that he made me as well.. and that he cares to know me.. that he loves me enough to comfort me and fix the things that seem to have no solution.. he reminds me that HE IS THE SOLUTION to ALL THINGS.... ANYTHING & EVERYTHING!

"*But You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I'll go where You will lead me Lord
You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I'll go where You lead me Lord
Where You lead me...

And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life
So let Your mercy light the path before me"

* All Sons & Daughters  - Called Me Higher

- Jx. 

March 18, 2015

I'm not whiny.. I'm just needy.

Haha, It's basically the same thing ... but It's not if you really pick it apart.

This week has been so emotionally exhausting. I'm leaving my job at the non-profit and taking on a new career change that God has led me to.. and let me tell you.. and I'm sure I've pointed this out before.. but when something is God ordained.. you just know.. He has made this transition very easy, peaceful and filled with immense grace. I'm very blessed.

And although I find myself incredibly excited for my very first day, I also find myself sad that yet again.. I'm loosing friends.. and actually not even friends.. in the last 12 months that I've been here.. we have become a little family.. and for that I will always thank God for.. I can't think of any of my countless jobs I've had.. where I've felt this close to the job itself, the mission they stand for or the people that make the place function daily... I will truly, truly miss everyone quite dearly. 

The Spirit keeps reminding me, 

"Delight yourself in The Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." 

Psalms 37:4

So I know for a fact and without a doubt that God knows where he's taking me, Why he's taking me there.. and How he's going to use me for his purpose and for his glory in this new place.. I'm forever grateful to my Everlasting God. 

- Jx.

March 17, 2015

Wishing it was 2012.

Over the weekend, I received a notification from my iPhone saying I had the option to update to the new iOS 8.2? I think.. well.. I thought about it until I saw just how much space is required.. 1.6GB.. I only have 8 GB on my phone so clearly that wasn't going to work... For some reason at this point of tech defeat I decided that I was going to just start deleting things I never even use anyway.. Emails included.. things I've had flagged since 2009.. This little cleaning cycle began around quarter past midnight and lasted until about 4:30am.. I didn't even realize how late it was.. until I realized I had gotten up from bed to pee about 3 times.. in the last few hours.. I was like Okkkkk.. time for bed.

Fortunately or Unfortunately I came across so many emails that tugged at every kind of emotional heart string I have in me.. I cried, I laughed, I smiled, I reminisced... It was bittersweet.

Its little glimpses into the past that kindly remind me how blessed and fortunate I am to have lived those moments... and at the same time it makes me wish I had a time machine and could stop time.

The days seem to be going by faster and faster, cares and worries are just grander and there's not a whole lot that is constant anymore.. other than the bad things... where did all the good things go?

Apparently they didnt' go anywhere.. they stayed in 2012.

- Jx.